My eyes are turning red...

FROM ALL THE CRYING


I have become the biggest cry baby ball of stress ever and I am about to fully explode. I am slowly exploding at the seams. I am so stressed with all this wedding stuff and yesterday only made it worst.
I went to my mom's house and we began our wedding Wednesday by running to the mall with my sister to try and find me some earrings but we ended up just getting my sister something and having to leave to go pick up my mom's friend Nancy who took the day off to spend with us shopping. We then went to the send out card tour which was really nice and inspiring and something that I really need to get more involved in because it is going to take off really soon, I can feel it. They served us lunch and some great snacks so I was ready for the day.
After leavings the SOC tour we went to my nan's to pick up some stuff for my mom and hang out with my Cooper puppy for a bit. We talked about the Arch that my nana is making us for the wedding and I know it will just be Beautiful!! Then we had to hurry home to get Nancy's daughter (who is so so cute) and wait because a man was coming to rent the boat.
I went with Nancy to get her daughter and when I got back to my mom's I was greeted with the horrible news that ruined the day!!!
We got the estimate back from the lady doing the food, cake, decorations, and service at the wedding!! $3400.00!! Then another $700.00 for the flowers! I freaked out I could not imagine that it would be that much since are not serving way expensive food at the wedding so I LOST IT!! I started calling other places and they were either not helpful or booked for the day of my wedding etc. I feel so bad that my parents are putting all this money into a wedding because I know they dont have it and thats why I wanted an at home wedding so that we could save money. I love my parents so much though because they would do anything for me and I know that they arent bothered by it that much.
I then called Bret to let him know and tell him the price of the flowers so that he could let his dad know ( who was ok with it but then it became sort of chaos for a moment). We then left my mom's house and went looking for my earrings and my sisters shoes for the wedding. We were able to find both and I am so excited everything is going to be beautiful. I ended the day with a snow cone, carmel corn and crying to Bret but he took care of it and made me feel better. I have such a great partner who will never give up on me or us.

I just want everything to be okay
I just want people to be excited and supportive
BUT
I cant control how they feel or act so I am just going to be happy for Bret and I and be happy for out wedding. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful man in my life who will always stand by me so I am not going to worry what about what someone might wear or what they may complain about this day is about Bret and my love and that is it!!

My ring and I had a Photo Moment

I love my ring so very much and feel so lucky to have such a beautiful one on my finger everyday to remind me of all that I am truly blessed with and which is the beginning to a wonderful life with Bret! Today is wedding Wednesday and we have a lot to get done :)

Final Head Count

We have turned our numbers in to lady that will be taking care of a lot of the wedding
We are so lucky to have her because she has taken a TON of the stress away

We are counting on 125 people for the wedding!

That seems like a huge number to me but thinking about it, it could be a lot bigger if we opened it up to more people
I am so excited to see how great the wedding turns out, I know it is going to be beautiful and elegant and everything I have ever dreamed of. My parents are working their butts off cleaning up the house and getting it all ready. I cant believe how much they are doing to make it look good! They must love me
I am going to go through our engagement pictures tonight and pick the final ones for editting and then hopefully we will get those back soon so we can start designing our wedding announcement! Its coming so fast but I am so excited and so happy that I get to spend the rest of my life with Bret!
Nothing new has really surfaced but tomorrow we are going to visit our dad's for Father's Day so I will let you know how it goes :)

We got our pictures!!

On saturday we had our engagement picture session and IT WENT SO GOOD
Steve was totally amazing and great to work with
Last night he sent us the proofs to look through so that we could mark the ones we want editted and so on. A lot of them turned out really good and I am so glad we had so many to chose from! I cant wait to see the final product I know that Steve will do a great job!

The wedding is coming up way fast and I have a bunch of mixed emotions. I have a lot I want to get done and a lot that I NEED to get done but I am trying to take it one step at a time so i dont have a freak out moment or lose my head! I cant wait to see how it all comes together. I have a few odds and ends I need to get done but other than that we are pretty much waiting for the day to arrive.

Bret went back to his old job today and I am pretty excited for him, I want him to have steady work that he loves so that he doesnt worry about money or get bored sitting at home all day. The toguhest part of our relationship has been the work situation so far but we have gotten through it stronger each time and I know we will continue to do good and love each other. We are trying to work on our communication and get better about how we approach certain situations but I know it all takes time but we will get there. We have the rest of our lives to work through stuff!

I will post pictures soon! I can't wait to have them and start working on the wedding announcements :)

54 Days

So Lucky in Love

I feel this blog has become my vent station.

I want to be able to show more of the good side of this blog though

I am so lucky to be marrying Bret. I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with him

He puts up with my crazy moods and my cry baby moments.

He never once has given up on me or left me

He is always the one who pushes through

I love him with all my heart and I dont know where I would be without him

I am a tough girl to put up with and he does it so well

He hardly complains and is always there to tell me how much he loves me and needs me

I love knowing that not matter what happens, he will always be there

We have grown a lot over the past 6 months

We have grown more than most couples do in years

We have had our fights and our hard times but we always come out on top

We love each other and that means we will never give up

I love Bret more than I could ever put into words

I am the luckiest girl in the whole world

I will never let him go

Tomorrow we are doing a lot of wedding stuff!

I am so very excited I cant wait

We are getting our pictures done and I hope they turn out great

I am pretty nervous but I know it will be a lot of fun

We are also going to go dress shopping with his mom

and hopefully work on our center pieces

Maybe we will also find sometime to go fishing

Bret loves to fish and I have never caught one before so he is really wanting me to catch one with him

He is a sweetheart

I could go on and on about all the great things that he does but that would take up this whole blog

I am lucky, in love and so very happy

Another one bites the dust

I knew that with Wedding Planning, not everything would go according to plan but I thought that I would be able to at least count on my family to pull through
................MAN WAS I WRONG

There has been stress after stress from family (I still love them though)
First its a problem with colors, then clothes, then who is all coming, then addresses, then attitudes and disappointments, now my pictures.
My uncle is a professional photographer and has been for a very long time
as a special gift he offered to do our engagement and bridal pictures for the wedding.
We scheduled the day, I got the date off of work, we found our clothes for the pictures and it was all ready to go.
Well my uncle had a job come up so we had to move the day, I was ok with it since its on a Sunday and thats the only day Bret and I know we will have off since we both dont work
Then on Tuesday I get a call from my mom saying we need to re-schedule again, after the week I had and the changing of everything so much I was so upset
Now my uncle was wanting us to go down on Fathers day, cancel our plans and take the pictures then.
Bret and I already made plans to have a BBQ with his family since we dont spend that much time with them and it really upset me that they just wanted me to drop everything for his schedule when he didnt really seem to care about our schedule
I know my uncle had good intentions and wanted to do something nice but even though he is family I wanted it to be more professional and taken care of better and not just called off at the last minute.
So i talked to the guy who is doing our wedding pictures, asked if he could take them on such short notice and now it is all ok. We are taking our pictures on Saturday at 6:00 pm and I am so excited. I think he will do a great job and I can not wait. I think this turned out for the best! And just like all the Bridal Magazines say, dont hire family to do work that someone else can do at your wedding it makes it to hurtful and complicated when things dont work out! I am not trying to say that my uncle isnt good at what he does or he isnt a good guy but it is better this way and i know everything will turn out great

Soon to be
Mrs. Maycock
60 days to go :)

I was called Bridzilla and I cried

This Weekend was rough on me


I have been loving wedding planning, I have loved looking at wedding stuff and thinking about how beautiful it will all look when it comes together. I have been stressed but I handled it ok until this weekend.


I have been asking everyone to wear like sunday casual (which i feel is normal and should be expected for a wedding) We are not having a line or anything but I wanted the family (his and mine) to be dressed nice and in our wedding colors (burgundy, ice mint, black) I was wanting the moms to wear nice dresses in either the burgundy or ice mint as well as the sisters and then the dads to wear suits with a vest and tie, then the boys of the family to wear black pants white shirt and the tie I got them. I thought this was pretty simple. I told them I dont want anything to fancy just nice and elegant. Well some people dont seem too happy about the black pants, which I feel they should just do it and not complain I am not asking them to buy new stuff or get a tux, then it seems like I am going to need to print pictures of the dresses I want because I have seen some that question if people understand that this is a classy wedding not a party. I just want everyone to look nice. I just want everything to match and be fun and I felt like I wasnt being too picky but I feel I should have a say. Bret and I decided on these colors together we picked what we wanted things to look like, and we shoud! This is our day and I feel we should be respected for our choices. Others say they are going to look so hot blah blah blah and get all the attention I dont know why but this irritates me and cause me to break down yesterday. I feel that this is my one day to be the pretty girl, this is my day to be the princess and this is Bret's day to look so handsome. I want people to respect that and not make it about them. This is about Bret and I and out love! Thats it and thats final. I love him so very much and he was so great at calming down last night after I cried like a baby. I am so in love, I just need to focus on that, I cant control how some people are. I just wish they would act like people that care and not cave men and women.


With all that negative talk I do want to say that I love his family and I love mine, its hard getting used to new people but I will do anything for him. I love him and I know it will take time to build boundaries and learn people but it will be worth it

Making a List... Checking it twice

I feel as if I am going over everything for the wedding many times a day

I am constantly thinking of what i want it to look like, if everyone will have fun, how will i look etc

I want everything to be perfect.

I want it to be my dream wedding because this is the only wedding I am going to have

I am so ready to marry Bret

I know he is the one I am suppose to be with always and forever

I am stressing a lot

I am loosing the fun and I need to pull it back in and enjoy the ride

I want everyone to feel our day is important and be excited but all that matters is Bret and I! we know what we want, we know that we love each other and we know that no matter what we will always have each other and that is the most important thing.

I just thought more people would want to be a part of the process and really enjoy it

I am loving every minute of it and I guess the less people are bugging me the more i get to do it my way

This post is all over the place but my head is so full of craziness and I dont know how to center it

A lot is being done, the list of to do's is getting shorter

I have my BEAUTIFUL DRESS

I got Bret his ring

We have talked to the lady who is going to make the cake, get the flowers and food

I know how I am going to decorate the back yard

I have enlisted my nana to build the arch Bret and I will get married under

I have found out that I am a simple girl who just likes things to look clean and elegant!

Bret and I have had great fun picking songs and we talk about the wedding all the time

I know he is excited and wants to marry me

I know that I am excited and want to marry him

I know that we will have a great time and I just need to enjoy the journey

Now For things I really need to work on

Setting aside money for our Honeymoon ( we are going to my parents cabin and fishing )

I need to start getting the house organized so it feels more like home

I need to finish the centerpieces

I need to have fun and enjoy it since its only happening once :)

I am the luckiest girl in the world

Things are coming together

Wedding Wednesday was yesterday and we got a lot done but it also stressed me out a lot more!!
WE talked to the lady who is going to be taking care of our decorations, food, cake and flowers! She was a nice lady but some of the stuff she was showing me looked really old school! No I am not one to make fun of anyone else's style or what they chose for their wedding but I like simple, plain elegant stuff not over the top crazy flowers everywhere with a ton of greenery, thats just not me. So in short I may have offended her which was never my intention and I am worried with how much she may try to charge us becuase we are getting alot of stuff with a lot of people. I just hope she gives us a good deal and the wedding turns out beautiful. I know that all the stuff doesnt matter the day is about Bret and I so honestly I dont care what the tables look like or if the colors dont match perfectly because I just want to Marry Bret and be his wife. I am so excited the days are going by fast and I know that time will only move faster but I am very excited and can't wait to be MRS. MAYCOCK :)