I am becoming overwhelmed!!

I feel like I have so much to do and so little time
I want to get everything put together and orgamized but when I get around to it I am just so tired that I say I will do it tomorrow and the horrible cycle of a messy house continues.
Bret and I already live together and I love it but my little home has a hard time holding everything in it.
My house is starting to fill like a balloon that is about to explode.
We live in a small one bedroom condo that i purchased a year ago when I was single and just working and going to school. It worked for me, it worked for the cats but now its just too much. The cats drive me crazy, they mess everything up and our home is showing signs of aging! It needs to be re painted, we need new furniture, we need new flooring, new cabinets, new everything! I want it all now, I want everything organized and in its place but no matter what I do it never gets to that point. I need to buckle down and get it down before I pull my hair out!
I want the house to be put together before the wedding, I want everything to have its own place and I want to feel relaxed when I walk in our front door not scared to go home and see what new mess is waiting for me.
I usually have every Wednesday off so naturally thats the day I would clean etc but my day off has been converted to Wedding Wednesday which I love because I spend the whole day with my mom working on wedding stuff and we get a lot done but I need my house cleaned!!! BLAH

This Wednesday we are doing the Save the Dates, meeting with the lady about my cake, food and decorations and then whatever else falls on our plate. Then in two weeks we are getting our engagement pictures done! I am freaking out a little, it is coming fast things seem a bit weird witha few people in the family and I just want to curl up in a ball and hide for the moment.
Hopefully this feeling will leave soon so I can get back to enjoying it all and soaking it in

I found my dress

Every wednesday has been desginated as wedding wednesday with my mom. This is the day we get together and make the wedding stuff happen since that is my day off of work. This past Wednesday we were set to meet with the photographer and contact the DJ then do some little stuff. Well who knew we would get done so early so I was all lets go try on some dresses for fun. I thought we were way ahead of schedule since we werent planning on dress shopping until June 22. little did we know the rest of the day would trun into a crazy frenzy. We first went to Davids Bridal and looked around when we walked in they began asking me questions about when the Big day was and their faces dropped, they could not believe this was our first time "just looking at dresses" The lady informed us that it is taking 12-20 weeks to get a dress on and I would really need to start looking. So in a panic we pick some dresses and start trying on. Not only were we way behind on finding a dress but totally off on how much dresses cost. We ended up going to four stores and at the last one I found my dress.!! I completely fell in love with it, it fits me great and is so amazing I know Bret will love it but he has to wait until the wedding day before he can see anything! I have my dress fitting tomorrow and I can not wait. i just want to put it back on and feel beautiful in it again!
Wedding planning in so fun! I have truly enjoyed every minute, Bret has been so helpful and really putting in an effort to help and make this OUR WEDDING

I am so lucky to have such an amazing man. We also made a count down chain, it looks way long right now but slowly it will get down and then we will be MARRIED :)

Wonderful Weekend!!

This weekend I took saturday off so that I could spend some much needed time with Bret and we could work on wedding stuff. We went and got his tux all picked out! Of my goodness he is going to look so handsome I dont know if I will be able to get through the ceremony! Then we went out to lunch and then went shopping at the mall to find our outfits for our engagement pictures! I was so worried that this was going to be a big horrible task because I hate shopping for clothes but it went so smooth and we found the best shirts to wear! The pictures are going to turn out great! Then we headed over to BRet's mom's house and hung out there for a bit. We got to play with his neice and nephew they are such cute little babies. It makes me want to have one of my own! Bret is going to be such an amazing dad I love to watch him play with the kids! Then on sunday we hung out at home, relaxed, took naps and then went over to my parents for dinner. It was my dad's birthday this past friday so we had cake and just talked for a bit.


It was a great weekend and I am so thankful that i have such amazing people in my life who love and support me. I can't believe how fast time is passing by and soon I will Mrs. Maycock

Writing it all down

I find myself wanting to remember every moment of planning my wedding, the stress, the love, the proposal. I keep writing down how I felt the day he did it,how I feel now I want to savor it all. I want to never forget how amazing and in love I feel at this moment. I never thought I would get to this point. I never thought that I would meet a man so great who would love me with his whole heart and not be afraid to show it. I am so lucky and everyday I fall more and more in love with Bret. I can't wait to be his wife and start our family. I know he will be a great husband and a great daddy. I don't want to wish the time away though I want to savor it and enjoy every moment of it because I am only ever getting married once!
This weekend I have saturday off so we are going to try and accomplish a lot. I want to get the final ok on my colors. I want to look for Bret's Tux. I want to spend so quality time with my man, probably fishing, he loves it. I want to take pictures, I need to talk to his mom about getting pictures of him when he was younger for our wedding video. I need to find more songs for our wedding playlist. I need to clean clean and clean the house. I need to organize everything so I feel more at ease with everything!!!
Its going to be a busy weekend and I am so excited!
I love my soon to be Hubby

Bret I love you with all my heart you mean the world to me and I dont know what I would do without you. Thank you so much for standing by me through the good and the bad. We have sure had to work through somethings that usually break other couples apart but it has only made us stronger. You are my everything xoxoxo

Counting Down

I am so excited for my wedding that I find myself just wishing time away
But I don't want to do that because I know once its over I will want it back

So I am trying to focus on all that needs to get done and really enjoy it
I am thinking that Bret and I need to fully organize our house and get everything it the right place. We have a very small place so the moment it gets dirty it looks horrible and gets so irritating. I need to really deep clean my house, be the good take care of home wife and get everything in its place. My mom is taking care of the wedding plans so I need to take care of the little plans.

This weekend we are going to look for Bret's Tux. I think he will look so handsome I can't wait. I think we are also going to go register at another place we went to target on Monday and we had so much fun. We put some funny stuff on there and just had a great time together. I think next time I will make sure to take pictures. I want to capture every moment so I can always remember it. I love Bret so much and I feel so lucky to have him in my life.

Day one of being engaged!

Is amazing! Everyone is loving my ring! They are suprised Bret and I are getting married after such a short amount of time but I can't think of reason not to marry him. I love him with all my heart and I dont know what I would do without him. He is my everything.
I am getting nervous for wedding pictures and everything I have this horrible double chin that I need to kick very shortly. I need tips I need thoughts I need suggestions on how to eat better and make better choices! Please help I could use it.

WE ARE ENGAGED 5/8/11

Bret popped the question and it was perfect.
Today we spent the day visiting all of our families because it was Mother's Day. We first went to my parents house where Bret asked for my Dad's blessing (so special to me). They had talked last week about how much Bret loved me and how special I was so my dad said that he had already give him his blessing and to not worry about it. Bret showed my whole family the ring and my mom cired becuase she was so happy.
We then went to his Grandma Pat's house where the family was getting together. I was able to meet more of his family and they were all so welcoming and warm hearted. Again he showed everyone the ring and they all thought it was beautiful I was sitting in the TV room while they were all in the kitchen and I could hear his aunt squeal with excitement ( she even put it on and was admiring it). When we got in the car to go Bret told me that his cousin suggested he ask me then but Bret told him no because he didnt think it wouldnt be fair since only his family was there. At that point I thought there was no way he was going to propose tonight.
After spending time with his Mom we went to get something to eat before heading over to his dad's to see his step mom Teri and wish her a Happy Mother's Day.
Bret decided that we should also go see his Grandma Shirlee at the rest home. We talked to her a bit and she also got to see my ring which she loved! She is such a sweetheart and so happy that Bret wants to settle down (she never thought he would).
We headed over to his dad's house where we chit chatted for a bit and talked about wedding colors etc. We had a great time and at about 8:30 decided that it was time to leave and head home. Teri had sent us home with a bunch of stuff so Bret carried it out and put it in the car and we headed back to our home. As we were driving home we talked about how much we loved each other and how excited we were. He kept saying that I need to park under the car port when we got home, which I usually don't do since my car got broken into back there but I thought that since we had stuff to take home he wouldn't want to carry all the way inside from the front of our complex since it was raining so hard.
Bret got out of the car and walked around to my side and asked if he could kiss me, which he usually never does but I said ya and then he hugged me and started telling me how much he loved me and promised to love me forever, he said that I was the reason he got up in the morning and the one person he thought of all day. He got down on his knee and at this point I started shaking and crying. He told me he loved me again and that I was his everything and then he said " Will you marry me?"I said "YES" of course and I cried and we hugged and kissed and at that moment I felt more happiness than I ever thought possible! It was perfect and everything I could have asked for! I. had no idea that tonight would be the night that it became official because of all the times he was saying he was going to make me wait and it wasnt going to be for awhile. He totally suprised and made it the most perfect proposal. Where we had our first kiss, in the rain, and on our annivesary. Bret is my everything and I dont know what I would do without him. He is my rock and the one person I can always count on. He has my whole heart and I get to spend the rest of my life with him. I then started freaking out about how pretty the ring was and called my family to let them know. They are so very excited and can't wait for our wedding day it will be so special.

Now some background on why Bret proposed where and when he did (he is so romantic and sentimental) I love it.
Today was our 5 month annivesary from our first date and first kiss. It was Mother's Day so we got to spend time with all those that we love, we had a great day together and were on such a high from all the excitement. Now the reason why he asked me right where he did was because thats where we had our first kiss!! When we had our first kiss he asked " Can I kiss you?" I said yes and then he repeated it tonight. He brought so many special moments into one and it was so perfect. It was so thoughtful and amazing that he remembered and felt that it was a special place just like I did.
I couldnt ask for a more perfect way to be asked to marry someone! It was all I have ever wanted and so much more

Soon I will be Mrs. Maycock and I cant wait.

We always do things in reverse!

Bret got my ring last night :) and I want it

We have been planning this wedding and getting everything together but he has not officially proposed lol

We were talking one day about wanting to get married and start a family. I wanted an outdoor wedding and he wanted a summer wedding. We realised that summer is approaching and we didnt want to wait another year to get married so August 6th came up and it was set. We started picking colors, making plans and telling everyone. Just this past sunday we went and designed my ring using the diamonds from my great great grandmothers ring. It was ready yesterday and Bret picked it up! I can't wait to be able to wear it everyday and be Mrs. Maycock. I am not a patient person but I will have to wait until he pops the big question.

My Soon To Be Hubby

Is truly amazing!
He listens to me complain and cry
He puts up with my crazy and annoying habits
He does anything and everything for me
He makes me laugh
He makes MY DAY

I am so lucky to have Bret in my life and I can not wait to marry him

92 DAYS